Thanks to the oncoming car light!

People say that in Texas spring we should prepare for the thunderstorm. This Tuesday, I had the first impression of what this means. I got more than twenty emergency alerts about tornado and flash flood in one hour, “Take shelter now”. Warning. Warning. Warning. We went to the first floor, gathered in a large classroom, and took shelter. Students were on their phones or computers. At some point, several of them began to talk. “Thunderstorm has one benefit. It helps reunion.” One of them said. It is true most of the time. Students and graduates hide in their classroom and offices. We do not talk.

Yesterday. It was the last day of energy class. Adam released us earlier. At eight, we were ready to go home. MW and I talked a little bit about our coming reunion time. She will leave Denton in several days. It is hard to say whether we would meet again very soon. I talked about my exams and my anxiety. It was raining and lightning outside. I felt like I should wait a while to go home.

Then, at 10 pm, I was ready to take my boy back to Argyle home, the temporary place I rent. The rains and lightning showed no sign to stop. We had to go. We walked downstairs, the building was empty. My car was the only one in the parking lot. I had to make the wiper move very frequently to see the road. I grunt that I hope there are cars on the road. We drove on 35 and then 377. My own car light it not bright at all. Very few cars were on the roads. And I did not see any car behind me. After I turn to 377, it was even darker. Very occasionally, the flashes of lightning tore the sky and the earth was white as the day. I drove at 40mils speed in the darkness. It is a strange experience, a strong feeling of loneliness, and a slight of awe. In this fear and dread, we drove in the downpour of rain at night. The lights of the oncoming cars gave me a lot of solaces. They were very few, but they were such a relief that I realized we were not truly lonely.

I hoped my car light also gave other people solace. I was the other who was also driving in a perilous night.



Louis is gone.

I did not expect my sadness when I knew this.

Suddenly, at the moment I realized, hereafter I will not have a little dog begging for food at the table when I eat.

Usually, when I cook, she is around. When I eat, she is around the table, looking at you with her transparent eyes, unconditionally trusting what I give to her.

I do not pet aminals because I am easy to be allergic to animals touch.

Now I have a willingness to adopt one.

I do not know what is going on in my mind. There is something other than being rational there.

Am I no longer a robot? Congrats for this big step.

Convenient​ Food Store Next to the Discount Tire

This very Wednesday morning, after I sent my 10 years old boy to his school, I took my car to the Discount Tire. Yesterday afternoon, when I picked him from the school, one kind mom told me, that my car had a flat front tire and I should take it to the Discount Tire to get some air in it. “It is free!” She addressed. I know it is free. Immediately after I bought this used Volvo about a year ago, I changed one of the four tires due to its bad conditions at the Discount Tire. After that, I came to the same Discount Tire store to get free air and to ask the employees about my other tires, basically, my concerns about the used tires of a used car.

This morning, it is raining. There is a plan for today, to fix the tires and also probably, to get car maintenance from Kwik. Another store provides me service.

The other day, I mentioned in my energy class, I do not use my cell phone very much even though I have a phone number in the states. Mackenzie said it is true. Because sometimes she tried to contact me, and she failed. Then she had to leave a message on my facebook messenger.

It is sad that I can choose not to use a cell-phone, but I cannot choose not to drive a car. I still remember the first semester here. I struggled and survived with my then 9 years old boy with public transportation and our bicycles. Each week, there were two days, we had to ride bicycles to get back home. I missed the days when I could take the commuter bus to work. I could have chosen to live close enough to the bus stations. I could have chosen to live to the other side of West Hickory Street. I could have chosen to walk across the street to enter the Environmental Science Building.

To some point, when I chose not to live across the West Hickory or close to the bus station I had made a hidden promise that someday, like today, I had to take my car to the Discount Tire, and any other place which could provide a service to my “modern” life.

That is where I am now. Burger King next to the Discount Tire. After I write a paper to talk about the risks of global biocultural homogenization, I come to this convenient food store for breakfast. You could see the cover of the creamer:




Thanks for the assiduous spirit of the commercial, I am free from hunger.

Pretty soon, my two front tires are changed to new ones. And I am ready to go.

Toward my continuity in this stabilized modern life.

Personal life choices matter to the planet earth. I eventually figure it out and feel regretful for my hasty choice at the very beginning. I was a smart girl and achieved first place in 7 grade due to my academic performance. After that, I cannot stop seeking.


The Cave Without​ A Name

I was reading the book Foundations, written by Eugene Hargrove, several days ago. He talks about his Onondaga cave in Chapter 6.

The Onondaga cave arouses my feeling of a slight nostalgia and reminds me of the cave without a name which I explored with my teenager companions when we were about twelve years old. The cave is about 30 minutes away from our homes by bicycles. Its entrance locates at the foot of a mountain beside a river. Nearby there are very few houses or people. Apparently, we have an association with this particular place which brought the rare experience of adventure to four teenagers. We explored the cave with candles in our hands. When the lights shed on the drops of water attached to the stalactite, they were shinning in the darkness like diamonds and we cheered. We did not attempt to try further in the cave after 15 minutes, we had the worries that we might get lost in the cave. And because there was seldom people around the cave, getting lost would be a tragedy. This exploration of the cave happened several times until our parents or guardians found out our secret and we were forbidden to enter into it without a companion of an adult. It never happened because entering the cave with an adult would destroy the adventure. Soon we entered the middle school and learned some geographical knowledge about karst topography. We were informed there are many more caves in our area and the largest one would be very quickly developed into a tourist destination to show the world “the greatest wonder”.  The largest cave is the Hunaglong Cave, covering a total area of 48 ha (120 acres), and now it is a national 4A rated scenic. But, we miss the small cave without its name rather than the Huanglong Cave. By telling this story, I am trying to say that some places have their identification. We associate the places for our experiences and memories. It might be anthropocentric, but it does not exclude the uniqueness of this place. 

I take the uniqueness of a place as its intrinsic value. It is similar to what happens when we talk about the unique value of a person, an artwork, or other good things. The uniqueness indicates irreplaceable. My cave is unique to me in this sense that I identify it as part of me. It is not because I own it, but because without it I might lose some part of my own uniqueness. In this way, the uniqueness produces something superior to my identity just through its existence. If my cave for some reason was gone, I return to the cave site and find out my attached place disappears. There is no place I can attach myself to. That is what the majority of the world population experience right now. Urbanization swallowed North America, South America, and most of Asia, not to mention old Europe and the new Oceania. Homogenization deprives the uniqueness of the places and replaces it with monotonous hybrids of nature and cities. The idea of preservation has something to do with this uniqueness. What has been preserved are supposed to be samples of those places with uniqueness. Unfortunately, uniqueness could not be saved by samples because sampling indicates abstracting and the absence of uniqueness. The only option to save the unique value of the places would be inhabiting without interfering.

I am not claiming that the preservation is not necessary. 

Marsh, Man and Nature


Marsh, George Perkins. (1864) Man and Nature, Or, Physical Geography as Modified by Human Action. New York: C. Scribner.


The ideological dichotomy – Nature/culture, material/mind, physical/mental, subordination/domination – has become a powerful contemporary locution to understand environmental history and the variation of the human-nature relationship. The pragmatic dichotomy – exploitation/conservation, damage/restoration, conquering/stewarding- is also one prominent pattern employed in analyzing environmental practices. From these two types of dichotomy, the ideological and the pragmatic, George Perkins Marsh’s book Man and Nature, Or, Physical Geography as Modified by Human Action is a vanguard masterpiece of environmental thinking because this book outlines the fundamental environmental issues more than one hundred years earlier than the environmental movement in the 1960s. Moreover, the argument and thoughts in this book match the latest apprehension of the extensive human-nature pertinence.

In the first chapter of the book, Marsh adopts the historical evidence of the decayed Old World to address the similar ongoing environmental degradation of the New World. In his opinion, the Old World including the Roman Empire, areas around the Mediterranean region, and other places with prosperous civilization created its progress with the price of “the physical decay.” To be specific, the once fertile and productive land “is now completely exhausted of its fertility … no longer capable of affording sustenance to civilized man” (p. 5). This typical nature/culture dichotomy deeply depicts the perpetual tension between human development and nature’s affluence. The physical decay of the surface of those areas demonstrates how culture has exploited nature. And this physical decay of the natural environment sequentially impairs the continuous prosperity of the human civilization. Marsh’s point here also implies that humans cannot survive without a vitalized nature. The deterioration of nature creates a culture declining and pushing forward extinction rather than cultural prosperity. This admonishment could be a prompt awakening for the New World that repeating the old strategy of exploiting the earth as an inexhaustible resource would render the same dissolution of the New Frontier. Taking Marsh’s view to reflect the human flourishing in the New World, not exclusively the United States but also the whole of North America, Australia, New Zealand, some areas of Latin America or far East, it would be a severe challenge to not suspend the contemporary and probably ephemeral success. In brief, his fundamental assumption is that no human world could survive with a degenerated nature.

Turning to the pragmatic strategy for a degraded natural world, Marsh emphasizes physical restoration. Although there were debates on whether humankind should practice restoration ecology to intervene in the ecological processes and some people insist that the best restoration is just to allow nature taking its course, renewing and restoring degraded ecosystems and habitats has become a dominant practice in the industrialized world. It is very impressive that Marsh covers the topics such as ecosystem equilibrium (p.43), ecological succession (pp. 27-32), ecological disturbance (pp. 31-37) and restoration ecology (pp. 52-56 ) which are common concepts nowadays, but apparently are quite far ahead of the time when they were developed by Henry Chandler Cowles, Frederic Clements, and other pioneers in this field. Marsh has his own accounting of what nature is. To be specific, the earth is not exclusive for human-use, but “only to the sustenance of wild animals and wild vegetation” (p. 38). This is apparently an ecocentric view. He attends to the difference of the destructiveness between humans and animals. In contrast to animals which survive by destroying other life and nature has a chance to endure all those destructiveness, to all appearances, (civilized) man’s assaulting of the earth is contagious suppression of nature, transforming the terrestrial surface, extirpating indigenous vegetation and animals, replacing them with exotic species, and exhausting all natural resources man could exploit. He also attends to the contradiction between man and “the wandering savage” (p. 41) who could survive by not overpowering nature. This implicating other patterns of human subsistence is insightful. Marsh is precisely right when he writes that “man is everywhere a disturbing agent” (p. 36) and man always brings disharmony to nature, turning nature into artificial non-nature. Therefore, he proposes practical restoration on this harmony-based concept, in his words, “physical improvement”(p. 44),  “a partial reverse”(p. 44 ), or “geographical regeneration” (p. 47). He eulogizes the existing achievements in forest restoration and governance of the aquatic environment, and claims that “these achievements are more glorious than the proudest triumphs of war” (p. 45). Marsh is also aware of the predicament of future improvement, and he expects some radical changes in the politics and morality to prepare for it. This is to say, Marsh has envisaged the complexity and poly-dimensionality of the pragmatic strategy of restoration.

The writing background of this book is also thought-provoking. Apparently, Marsh’s writing is unlike other early American environmental writings such as Ralph Waldo Emerson’s Nature (1836) and Henry David Thoreau’s Walking (1861). Although it shares the same theme with the other two writers in reflecting human/nature and culture/nature relationships, Marsh distinguishes himself from them by blending his research in the sciences. For example, he specifically mentions the accomplishment of the new geography, stressing that Humboldt and other geographers are more philosophical than their predecessors through human geography (p. 8).  This increasing philosophical trait in geography deepens the perception of the influence of physical environment on social development which stitches the traditional aversion between the mind and material in the western ideology. The reunion of the mind and the material was derived from reflection on the separation of mind and matter but from a strong aspiration in western science to generate a unification of the world. At Marsh’s time, this effort was particularly reinforced through Charles Darwin’s evolution theory, Rudolf Clausius’ thermodynamics, and James Clerk Maxwell’s electromagnetism. Evolutionary theory breaks the boundaries among organism and animate bodies. Thermodynamics makes the union of the massive mechanical world possible through heat, power, and energy efficiency. Electromagnetism unifies the physical interactions among microscopic particles. Marsh does not necessarily attend to these theories, but the trend of discovering the universal and pervasive connection or kinship among different entities might have created a detectable atmosphere, attracting him to the new geographical school. Moreover, the perception of pervasive connections among different entities contributes to building up his ecological consciousness so that he could break through the boundary between the organisms and the inorganic environment. For example, he recognizes the moisture and warmth of the soil would affect the growth of vegetation and how insufficient our observation and knowledge to our climate are. Thus, he addressed that one of the most important branches of research is to investigate the “the proportions between precipitation, superficial drainage, absorption, and evaporation” (p. 24). This tints his book a style of strong empirical feature, rather than hermit-like witticism or cynical resentment.

To sum up, Marsh reflects the human-nature relationship with great profundity. The merits of his assumption of an indispensable equilibrium nature for human civilization, a pragmatic strategy of geographical regeneration, and his science-oriented attitude manifest that he fully deserves a solution for his foresight and sagacity.